I'm such a sheep...
Jul. 10th, 2006 10:20 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solitary_summer(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)
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| ✓ I miss somebody right now. | ✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (Eh. It varies. Do DVDs count as tv?) | ✓ I own lots of books. (I hesitate to say 'lots', but it probably does qualify...) |
| ✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses. | × I love to play video games. | × I've tried marijuana. (I'm so very boring...) |
| ✓ I've watched porn movies. | × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship. (Given my lack of relationship history...) | × I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (I wish it were. But there's something to be said for polite lies, too.) |
| ✓ I curse sometimes. (Who doesn't?) | ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (Again, a lot is probably an exaggertion, but I have changed, I think.) | × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. (Do I just live a very sheltered life? None of my knives ever leaves the kitchen.) |
| × I have broken someone's bones. | ✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal. | × I hate the rain. (Unless it rains for weeks on end...) |
| ✓ I'm paranoid at times. (Occasionally.) | × I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (No, no, and no. I'm morally opposed to plastic surgery, unless it's reconstructive surgery.) | ✓ I need/want money right now. (Weeell. Need, no; want, sorta.) |
| × I love sushi. (I tolerate it, but I fail to see the appeal of cold rice and raw fish.) | ✓ I talk really, really fast. (Not always, but when I'm nervous, yes.) | × I have fresh breath in the morning. (Probably not.) |
| × I have long hair. (Had.) | × I have lost money in Las Vegas. (Never even been there.) | ✓ I have at least one sibling. (Sister.) |
| ✓ I was born in a country outside of the U.S. | × I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past. | × I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. (I even manage to survive without a mobile phone, *gasp*. Then again, i don't have much of a social life.) |
| ✓ I like the way that I look. (Mostly I do.) | ✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. | ✓ I am usually pessimistic. |
| ✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (Occasionally.) | ✓ I think prostitution should be legalized. (Common sense.) | × I slept with a roommate. (Never even had one.) |
| × I have a hidden talent. (Um. One hidden even from myself, perhaps?) | × I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. | × I have a lot of friends. |
| ✓ I have pecked someone of the same sex. (Not in a sexul way.) | × I enjoy talking on the phone. (NOT!) | × I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. |
| × I love to shop and/or window shop. | ✓ I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (Obsessed is such an ugly word...) | × I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother. (I've outgrown that phase, which is proabably just as well, considering my age.) |
| × I have a mobile phone. (I'm probably the only person doing this meme not to check this box?) | × I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (I've been drunk, although not in the last six months, as far as I recall, but never so much as to pass out.) | ✓ I've rejected someone before. |
| × I currently like/love someone. (Hm...) | ✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. (Sadly, that is true.) | × I want to have children in the future. (Not particularly.) |
| × I have changed a diaper before. (Ask me again in five or six months.) | × I've called the cops on a friend before. | ✓ I'm not allergic to anything. (I occasionally sneeze a little in spring, but that's about it.) |
| ✓ I have a lot to learn. (Who hasn't.) | × I am shy around the opposite sex. (I'm shy around everyone.) | × I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (I'm online a lot, but even I turn the computer off occasionally.) |
| × I have at least 5 away messages saved. | ✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before. (Alcohol, yes; drugs, no.) | × I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. |
| × I own the "South Park" movie. | × I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal. | × I enjoy some country music. (Vaguely like it.) |
| × I would die for my best friends. (You can't answer such a question in the abstract.) | ✓ I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist. (*sigh*) | × I have used my sexuality to advance my career. (What sexuality?) |
| × I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. | × I have dated a close friend's ex. | × I am happy at this moment. (But not unhappy, either.) |
| × I'm obsessed with guys. (Emphatic no; way too asexual.) | × Democrat. (If I were American I might be.) | × Republican. |
| × I don't even know what I am. | × I am punk rockish. | × I go for older guys/girls, not younger. |
| ✓ I study for tests most of the time. (Always did.) | × I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. | × I can work on a car. |
| × I love my job(s). (I don't hate it, that has to be enough.) | × I am comfortable with who I am right now. (Mostly, yes.) | × I have more than just my ears pierced. |
| ✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can. | × I have jumped off a bridge. | × I love sea turtles. (Randomness much? They're nice.) |
| × I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. (I never even wear any.) | × I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (I wish I had one.) | × I am proficient on a musical instrument. |
| × I hate office jobs. (I have a sneaking suspicion though that I'd hate office atmosphere.) | × I went to college out of state. (I didn't even go to university out of town.) | × I am adopted. (Not that I know.) |
| × I am a pyro. | × I have thrown up from crying too much. | × I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (Hurt, yes, intentionally, presumably no.) |
| × I fall for the worst people. | × I adore bright colours. | × I usually like covers better than originals. (Never made a study of it.) |
| × I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays. (If we ever have them over here I'll probably hate them.) | ✓ I can pick up things with my toes. | ✓ I can't whistle. (I can produce whistle-y noises, but it's rather hit or miss.) |
| ✓ I have ridden/owned a horse. | ✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in. (But they are not many.) | ✓ I talk in my sleep. (Or so I've been told.) |
| × I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century. (If I were a man I might have, as a woman, not so much.) | × I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (Not consciously.) | × I wear a toe ring. (My toes are too short & ugly to draw attention to them.) |
| × I have a tattoo. (Never could decide on a motive.) | × I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with. | × I am a caffeine junkie. (Used to be, had to quit at least for the time being.) |
| × I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all. | × If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder. (This question is so very wrong in just about every way. And I have no respect whatsoever for people who answer 'yes' to this.) | × I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. |
| ✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner. | × I'm an artist. (Wannabe. Want to be.) | × I am ambidextrous. (No, although my computer mouse is on the left side.) |
| × I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. | × If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony. | × I have terrible teeth. (Not too bad.) |
| ✓ I hate my toes. (God, yes, I do. The one body part(s) I really hate.) | ✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me. (I'm such a sheep.) | × I have more friends on the internet than in real life. |
| × I have lived in either three different states or countries. (I haven't even lived in three different cities.) | × I am extremely flexible. (In neither way.) | × I love hugs more than kisses. (Hm...) |
| × I want to own my own business. | × I smoke. (Never have.) | ✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (Probably.) |
| × Nobody has ever said I'm normal. (I don't exactly go around asking people...) | ✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then. (Occasionally.) | × I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons. (American memes are weird.) |
| ✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits. (My inner lesbian approves.) | ✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me. (Is unpleased even a word?) | ✓ I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds. |
| × I have played strip poker with someone else before. | × I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help. (Should have sought, though.) | × I believe in ghosts and the paranormal. |
| × I can't stand being alone. | × I have at least one obsession at any given time. | × I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again. (I don't even own scales.) |
| × I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment. | × I'm a judgmental asshole. (I should hope not.) | × I'm a HUGE drama-queen. (I have some dramatic tendencies, but not really.) |
| ✓ I have travelled on more than one continent. | ✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (Have wished.) | ✓ I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am. (Oh, *sigh*, yes.) |
| × I am a Libertarian. | ✓ I can speak more than one language. | ✓ I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be. (If I'm tired enough.) |
| × I would rather read than watch TV. (Weeeellll...) | × I like reading fact more than fiction. | × I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do. (Back at school, maybe. Can't recall.) |
| ✓ I have no piercings. (Unless pierced ears count, and hey, didn't we already have that question?.) | × I have spent the night in a train station or other public place. (Train station, but that was waiting for a train.)</sm |
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Date: 2006-07-18 01:03 am (UTC)Second, I ask your pardon for my presumption. You've disabled comments on the most recent two posts, and here I am, commenting. I know little of the particulars of your situation, and yet, everything you say resounds so strongly to me with the emotional notes I've heard from friends with physical, clinical depression. You're obviously talented and intelligent, with an insight you can dip into to analyze books, landscapes, architecture. Here in California, on the other side of the world, I hear your words, and they don't come anywhere near "failure." Again, I don't know your situation. But unless "failure" means "I had the chance to save Earth from destruction at the hands of an alien fleet, and messed it up," it seems to me that there is plenty of time to discover what you want to do with your abilities.
If I were you, and I had not experimented with various antidepressants till I found one that worked for me, I'd begin that now. It may be ridiculous that we humans should be so at the mercy of our biochemistry, but there it is. Not everything is due to character or fate.
I've been presumptuous, as I said. I'm aware of my ignorance, but had to speak up in case it would help. I hope you will forgive me. Also, I hope that you feel no obligation to respond to this if in any way that thought is unpleasant to you. It's not my intention to add to your stress. Ignore it, delete it, do what seems best to you. In fact, pretend I wasn't here at all.
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Date: 2006-07-18 07:14 pm (UTC)(Rather, I feel perhaps I should apologise for forcing this kind of psychotherapeutic post on my friendslist... At any rate I felt more than a little sheepish on the 'morning after'.)
I have been (with some ups and downs) getting continuously better over the last two years, I guess it's dealing with that annoying stomach infection for so long that had put too much stress on me recently and finally pushed me over the edge a little. And then suddenly all the personality flaws I usually think I can accept, and perhaps, slowly, change for the better, condense and build up to one big failure!. Things are already looking a little more in proportion again today, but I've sort-of decided yesterday that perhaps I really should give at least therapy a try...
Again, thank you for your comment and concern. :)