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Jun. 25th, 2011 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solitary_summerI know I've been kind of absent lately, but sometimes words feel so pointless and inadequate. Or maybe it's I who feels pointless and inadequate, and on the whole am happier ignoring myself. Everyone around me is moving on with their lives, careers, family; G. has a job interview in Hamburg and my Russian teacher, as it turns out, will be moving to La Palma with her husband. Meanwhile, I'm stuck, I'm frozen, I've been struck for the last ten years, and probably will remain stuck, since I seem to be totally incapable of getting myself unstuck.
Spent most of yesterday's holiday going through another 90-100 pages of my Excel book. Exciting, isn't it.
I'm happiest when I go for long walks; maybe this is another method of avoiding myself? Sometimes I wonder.
Spent most of yesterday's holiday going through another 90-100 pages of my Excel book. Exciting, isn't it.
I'm happiest when I go for long walks; maybe this is another method of avoiding myself? Sometimes I wonder.
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Date: 2011-06-26 02:05 am (UTC)*Hugs*
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Date: 2011-06-26 09:16 pm (UTC)The Excel doesn't make it better, trust me. I keep thinking that maybe it should, since it's at least acquiring a skill of sorts, but when I'm sitting there with the damn book struggling with Pivot tables that doesn't help at all.
I really hope Miracle Day will make me want to write again without constantly questioning every sentence and in the end deleting it.
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Date: 2011-06-26 08:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-06-26 09:24 pm (UTC)She's definitely not annoying, I just can't get used to not calling her 'Sie' - there's some sort of stupid block in my brain.