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[solitary_summer]

Epiphany while walking to the store to get groceries, write more.

I've been guilt-tripping myself most of last week for spending so much of my free time staying home watching & writing about TW, but going out today and actually feeling good, and having some new ideas what I might do with photography (be a bit more spontaneous, mostly) I realised that on some level I'd needed that. I don't know why, but there have always been these two distinct parts of my brain, the artistic/visual/emotional and the intellectual/verbal/analysing part, and the problem throughout university was that I just couldn't ignore either of them, much as I wanted to. I tend to believe the artistic side is more me in a sense, and something that would be harder and more painful to give up, but what I realised is that the other part is not just something I enjoy doing, but something that is necessary to me too. Verbalising, thinking through things; it does help me to sort myself out. Maybe I need to learn to connect both sides better instead of seeing them as opposites between which I have to (and can't) decide? Be more aware of them, even if I go through phases where one of them is more dominant than the other?

Write. Not necessarily always, because there are times when I can be perfectly content with who I am without analysing everything and anything, but when in depression, write, write, write. Even if you don't feel like it. About tv shows, if you can't write about yourself, doesn't matter. Write.

[A big Thank You goes to carose59. :) I really should listen to the people on my friendslist more often.]

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[un-crayon-rouge.livejournal.com]

And thank you for reminding me, too!

Btw, it's definitely spring here, and spring in Madrid kind of reminds me of you, so, when are you coming to visit, huh?

[solitary-summer.livejournal.com]

Hm, das würde vermutlich erst im Sommer gehen (Manu Urlaub & Birgit Urlaub demnächst), sonst höchstens mal übers Wochenende... Und mein Spanisch ist auch schon wieder ganz eingerostet vor lauter Russisch. *schäm*

[carose59.livejournal.com]

You are very welcome!

And as long as I'm dispensing words of wisdom, here are a couple of things that I learned in grade school. They have to do with farming, but I think they apply to us Artistes, too. *g*

1) Crop rotation is important. If you keep planting one kind of vegetable over and over, you deplete the soil of the nutrients that vegetable requires. I think the same is true for artistic endeavor, which is one reason I also make jewelry and sometimes draw (very badly).

2) Allowing the ground to go fallow is also very important. A season with nothing planted helps it build itself back up, too. That's why it's important for us to have time when we're doing "nothing"; that time is not wasted, and we should not judge ourselves for it. (I have to tell myself that a lot.

I'm really glad you're working it out in your head, and also really glad I could help.

[solitary-summer.livejournal.com]

Farming or not, that's actually very good advice... :) Thanks again!