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I ought to be be asleep, considering tomorrow's schedule, but it's too hot to be tired, if that makes any sense...

Hot, humid, clothes sticking to your body, running was horrible today (though that may also have to do with the lack of sleep), I'm surviving on chilled water melon, greek salad, tsatsiki and iced coffee.


Funny thing... a couple of nights ago I was randomly watching the nin webcam, but strangely found myself more fascinated with the outdoor camera, raindrops in a puddle, cars passing - sitting at home after midnight, watching a puddle grow larger on the other side of the world...

Somehow, perhaps, it seemed more real than various nin-related people fiddling with technical equipment & staring at computer screens.


[Strange dreams this morning, part of it so vividly recalling my former self, still at university, the satisfaction & warm feeling of being praised, appreciated; a certain amount of childish safety. Even while I woke up with a longing to go back there, it made me realise that I'm no longer that person, and the vivid recollection left me slightly confused and disorientated all day. ]