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Jun. 13th, 2011 01:29 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
solitary_summer*sigh* Business as usual. I should be doing a lot of things, but end up paralysed, procrastinating a lot, and constantly feeling guilty, guilty, guilty. At least made it through another 40 pages of my Excel book today. Still haven't done any Russian homework, though, and I really should be studying more intensively to prepare myself for the two weeks in July... On a more self-indulgent note, there are a couple of things I'd like to write, but rewatching anything is pretty much out of the question right now, and my mind is so tied up in the struggle between avoidance mode, guilt, and panicked should-do-that-s that I'm completely incapable of focusing on anything. Pathetic, I know.
Anyway. A few pictures from yesterday's walk that started in Hütteldorf and ended up in Mauer six hours later, because to complicate things even further, my body is apparently conspiring with the avoidant part of my brain and keeps insisting it wants to spend a lot of time outside & moving... Partly it was a bit meh, but the evening was just lovely; the first two photos give a bit of an impression, but obviously there's no way to really convey the mood of it all, coming out of the darkness of the forest into the meadow, walking up the hill into the light of the evening sun low over the trees, the smell of earth and mown grass, all the scents stronger towards evening; the stillness, peace and momentary solitude, until you reach the top of the hill and see a couple with their two dogs and realise you're not quite aone after all...
In a way I'm dissatisfied with my photos, because they're always too... smoothly, and I'm almost tempted to say, superficially, beautiful. I'd like to do something a bit... rawer, I guess, more realistic, with more life in it, but I just don't know how. In the end that's probably not me, I suppose. The problem is my life, not my photography. Still, though, I wish I could just do a little better. Maybe I should take a class to really study the technical aspects; perhaps that would help. But see above—really no time right now.
Anyway. A few pictures from yesterday's walk that started in Hütteldorf and ended up in Mauer six hours later, because to complicate things even further, my body is apparently conspiring with the avoidant part of my brain and keeps insisting it wants to spend a lot of time outside & moving... Partly it was a bit meh, but the evening was just lovely; the first two photos give a bit of an impression, but obviously there's no way to really convey the mood of it all, coming out of the darkness of the forest into the meadow, walking up the hill into the light of the evening sun low over the trees, the smell of earth and mown grass, all the scents stronger towards evening; the stillness, peace and momentary solitude, until you reach the top of the hill and see a couple with their two dogs and realise you're not quite aone after all...
In a way I'm dissatisfied with my photos, because they're always too... smoothly, and I'm almost tempted to say, superficially, beautiful. I'd like to do something a bit... rawer, I guess, more realistic, with more life in it, but I just don't know how. In the end that's probably not me, I suppose. The problem is my life, not my photography. Still, though, I wish I could just do a little better. Maybe I should take a class to really study the technical aspects; perhaps that would help. But see above—really no time right now.
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Date: 2011-06-13 02:35 pm (UTC)Have you tried photographing people? Maybe street photography will give you some of the edginess you are looking for.
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Date: 2011-06-14 02:46 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-06-13 03:23 pm (UTC)The photos and your words convey a lot.
coming out of the darkness of the forest into the meadow, walking up the hill into the light of the evening sun low over the trees, the smell of earth and mown grass, all the scents stronger towards evening; the stillness, peace and momentary solitude, until you reach the top of the hill and see a couple with their two dogs and realise you're not quite alone after all...
Your words give me the experience vicariously.
This entry made me forget, for a moment, that I am sitting at my desk at work.
Thank you.
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Date: 2011-06-14 02:40 pm (UTC)Thank you.
You're (as always) very welcome! :) And that's the most important thing really, that they mean something to others. Thank you.
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Date: 2011-06-13 04:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-06-14 02:35 pm (UTC)Anyway, it makes me happy that you like seeing them!