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Dilemma. My sister and her boyfriend (he, mostly; she doesn't care much either way) have decided to have their daughter baptised after all, and my sister asked me how I'd feel about being her godmother.

I've been dreading this since she was born, actually. I love my niece, my sister knows she can always depend on me, but I'm not going to go through a religious ceremony and promise I'll help raise the child a good catholic, when I don't have the least intention of doing that. I'm mostly atheist and only nominally catholic myself, but there's enough... catholic guilt, I guess, to make me feel extremely uncomfortable doing that. Or at the very least, when I make promises, it's with the intention of keeping them. I wouldn't marry in church for the same reason.

I had to decline. My sister already knew that it'd be an iffy issue for me, so there are no bad feelings, but I still feel kind of...


Pretty shitty, actually. As if I'd let her (my niece) down in some way.

Is that the residue catholic guilt speaking, or was it a very petty thing to do? Should I just have got over myself and my issues and agreed to do it?