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Mar. 30th, 2007 07:25 pmConfessions of an ex-fangirl would be an appropriate title, I think...
Or, reflections, not to get anyone's expectations up.
It's not that I haven't loved the music, but in hindsight I guess my involvement with nin was always primarily emotional, and yesterday I felt... not even out of place, at least not uncomfortably so, rather in a fond & distanced way, if that makes any sense?, but so absolutely emotionally detached that it's impossible for me to say if it was good, bad or anything in between. It took me about half the show to get even a little bit into the mood; for a long while I was just mostly standing there wondering how - seven years? how can it have been seven years already [insert platitude about the swift passage of time] - ago I listened to this, decided (not immediately, but soon after) it defined the state of me and fell in deep fanish love for the next few years?
Strange.
I'll still listen to TF on occasions and have recently discovered a certain fondness for tracks 10.-13. of WT, but nin isn't what I want from music emotionally at this point; the limitation to the anger/depression spectrum doesn't interest me any more. And while other people seem to be perfectly capable of doing that, I find it almost impossible to divide artistic appreciation from emotional connection in this case.
( not really a review )
Or, reflections, not to get anyone's expectations up.
It's not that I haven't loved the music, but in hindsight I guess my involvement with nin was always primarily emotional, and yesterday I felt... not even out of place, at least not uncomfortably so, rather in a fond & distanced way, if that makes any sense?, but so absolutely emotionally detached that it's impossible for me to say if it was good, bad or anything in between. It took me about half the show to get even a little bit into the mood; for a long while I was just mostly standing there wondering how - seven years? how can it have been seven years already [insert platitude about the swift passage of time] - ago I listened to this, decided (not immediately, but soon after) it defined the state of me and fell in deep fanish love for the next few years?
Strange.
I'll still listen to TF on occasions and have recently discovered a certain fondness for tracks 10.-13. of WT, but nin isn't what I want from music emotionally at this point; the limitation to the anger/depression spectrum doesn't interest me any more. And while other people seem to be perfectly capable of doing that, I find it almost impossible to divide artistic appreciation from emotional connection in this case.
( not really a review )