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Health update: YES! We finally got facts! It turned out that the Very Annoying Stomach Thing is indeed a bacterial infection, I'm on antibiotics (actually I'm taking three different pills at the moment), which isn't exactly fun, because right now my stomach is even iffier than it was (I'd even considered a morning run today, but when I got up nausea really hit, and work wasn't particularly fun either; tomorrow I'll probably just stay at home & relax & read & watch more SV) but hopefully it will be over & done with soon. Another gastroscopy to check, but hey!, minor inconvenience at this point. At least now I know what I'm dealing with, and this, certainly, is much preferable to some diffuse sickness that may or may not be caused by psychological issues. Plus, there's the whole I'm-not-delusional/hypochondriac,-but-actually-sick thing, which is also rather satisfying in its own twisted way.


In other, er, news?, I spent an embarrassing amount of time following the MsScribe story over the last few days. Obviously I'm not involved in this, or in fandom generally at that, although I do lurk on fandom_wank around its edges, I can only blame the trainwreck fascination or my inner voyeur historian (there isn't really anywhere you can observe human interaction step-by-step the way you can on the internet) or watching behaviour that is very, very alien to me. (Or - most likely - some baser emotion...) I understand defensive lying, the small and not-so-small lies you tell to cover for yourself, I get polite lies. I'm not good at lying personally, and my first instinct is to be honest about even quite embarrassing issues and it took me a while and a conscious effort to learn the required social lies, but even I do that on occasion, especially at work. What is totally alien to my nature is this kind of offensive lying with the intent of achieving something, especially building these complex building of lies and personas...


Another boring entry. Wanted, muchly: inspiration. ::sigh::