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I don't know why this keeps happening. How can I move/switch/fall from feeling secure in myself, positive, happy almost, to this state of mind where all the destructive emotions are, where everything takes on a negative taint, like nothing's ever changed over the last two years, within the space of a day? How can I even be sure what's real any more, and when I am deluding myself? Do I get to make the rules? I thought so, for a while, but I'm not so sure just now.



Eh. Ignore me. Most likely it's only the PMS in whose existence I refuse to believe...