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[picture lost with the unet account, can't remember what it was]

:: depressed ::

[13.3.2008 ETA from deadjournal:

another picture, because i'm just too depressed at the moment to post anything coherent or in the least worthwhile. work is mindnumblingly dull, and really, 31 years, and that has been all? no hopes, no dreams, nothing? that's what i'm going to settle for? might as well kill myself now... melodrama aside, though, i'm aware it's all my fault, allowing myself to drift into this situation in the first place, and the incapability to get out, but i just can't manage to find any longer term perspective, or the energy to persue it. or anything beyond day-to-day existing...]