solitary_summer | (no subject) (Reply)

Big news for once, although sort of... second hand? Not so much my big news, anyway. My sister announced at our family Easter dinner thing that she's pregnant. I'm still a little flabbergasted, I can't really get my mind around it that my little baby (alright, 29 years old...) sister is going to be a mother, or that I'm going to have a niece/nephew by November.

And I'm a little bit shaken, somehow. So far when people around me had children, it never really mattered in the sense that it disturbed my perception of my own life, but now... It did upset my fragile balance (illusion?) of contentment at least a little, and I can't help the feeling that I'm passing by my life without doing much of any significance. Some people do have a life, as the saying goes, after all. She has a baby, I post photos on the internet. Yeah. It probably can't be helped that I'll be even more the useless freak of the family, although to be fair I guess they do love me and it's probably only I who sees herself that way.

Oh, I guess I'll snap out of it tomorrow and re-arrange my perspective, but right now I could really do with a glass of wine, but I'd only end up upsetting my stomach again, so better not... ::sigh::