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[solitary_summer]

::groan:: Tooth fixed, all pretty (or at least so I was told) and expensive, and I seem to remember I was also promised that this would be the last appointment for the time being, but, hey, wait, there's a fissure in one of the old fillings and I'm back there again in two weeks. Gah. I can't do this. Minor nervous break down.


It's cold, today felt more like January than November, blue sky, crystal clear light, freezing northern wind, thin layers of ice and snow only melting in direct sunshine. Lovely, though. To me Vienna is always most beautiful in this kind of winter light.


Tired all the time. Between the low temperatures, work and the stress of dentist appointments I haven't been on morning runs for almost two weeks now, and feel fat, unfit and guilty, but getting up at six just doesn't seem feasible right now. Last weekend slipped by so fast with my father's birthday and the breakfast/movie date with R. and U. No Saturday/Sunday weekends for me now until after Christmas.


Watched AtS S4 for tv comfort food, because I needed it, and this seems to be all I'm fit for recently. (Still haven't finished Böse Geister, only ever reading a few pages here and there, during lunchbreaks, on the underground, although I'm actually fascinated by it - sometimes I think I ought to throw out the tv, dvd player and possibly the computer. Sayeth the girl who just bought Buffy S7. Ah well.) Anyway. It's still damned good, very ambitious, and for the greatest part incredibly well acted. Ended up liking Connor a lot more than I did the first time I watched it, and Fred rather less (less-er). She's cute and intelligent and whatnot, but when it comes right down to it, she's a spoiled princess who in her heart believes that things should go according to her wishes, lacking in empathy and extremely clingy. She uses Wesley when it serves her needs, dumps Gunn for what he did for her, with her, is offended when she finds out about Wesley and Lilah, because that makes it impossible for Wesley to immediately replace Gunn as a boyfriend, is, again, vaguely offended, when Gunn doesn't immediately jump at the chance to get together with her, and is incapable of understanding that Wesley didn't at least hate Lilah while sleeping with her (and this is where I really begin to hate her wide-eyed 'OMG how could you' look) and crushes on Willow for no good reason whatsoever... It's not so much that in itself which makes her annoying, but the way no one ever acknowledges her faults but rather goes on and on and on about the wonderfulness that is Winifred Burkle. Lilah is right in that, Fred never understands Wesely at all; they work on a superficial level, because they're both intelligent and science-orientated, but not on the visceral level, there just isn't the sense of togetherness and understanding you get from Wesley and Lilah even when they snark at each other, or from Wesley and Angel throughout S4.

On a somewhat related note, pondered and wrote half a lj-entry about the whole female characters/femslash, or lack thereof/possible misogyny issue, but haven't quite come to an conclusion yet, not the least because of my brain's ability to argue itself out of any opinion, if I only give it enough time.


Watched Maurice on dvd (bought in a fit of nostalgia; also, deleted scenes; also, quite cheap), and while I'll most likely have seen it again sometime between fifteen (I really must have been this young because I remember reading the German translation of the novel afterwards, not the English original) and now, I certainly read the book more often in the meantime, and it's interesting how both blurred in my mind. There are scenes I'd have sworn were in the movie, that I can almost see with the movie-cast, but aren't, while at the same time in my mind Maurice will always be blond and Clive dark-haired... My focus has shifted of course, because my romantic fifteen year-old self back then could never really get over Maurice and Clive not working out, probably didn't really get the sexual aspect, the full impact of Clive's insistence on a platonic relationship, but I'm still rather fond of the film...


0:34 Really ought to go to bed now...