What I mostly want (or feel I should do) is to go forward, not back, but I don't even seem to know how to chose a direction...


Several reasons and none... I started working full time and didn't have the energy to do put a serious effort into it beside the job, depression coming and going, no realistic possibility of a job that would actually pay the bills even if I had finished it, and when my supervisor retired after a series of health problems, it was the last straw, so to speak.

In the end I guess I just didn't want it enough to go through with it.